The year that was 2020…

19th December 2020, marked my one year anniversary from escaping the corporate world. The year of 2020 sure was one hell of a rollercoaster, but despite all the obstacles it threw at me; I made it!

I remember my last ever day at “work” like it was yesterday. It was such a surreal feeling, something I had wanted for so long was finally manifesting. I felt like my life was finally about to begin, a whole new exciting chapter to add to my story; but come on, this is MY story, it was never going to be plain sailing- I had to throw in a few cliff hangers along the way.

As I’m sure most of us did, I started 2020 with so much hope. January came and I was all set to move to Surrey. It doesn’t seem far, but it was around 40 minutes away from everyone I love and care about so this was a big thing for me as I’ve always wanted to be close by my loved ones.

When I decided to quit my job I was given the opportunity to work with one of my friends; she is an actress and travelled a lot and I agreed to help her out with her daughter; hence the move. It was a win win situation really; I wanted to be free to work on my business and she needed someone that was free to be around. I absolutely LOVED Surrey; I felt so free, there was so much space, so much greenery. I felt so much closer to myself spiritually being away from the hustle and bustle of London.

Things were going well. I was planning what I needed to do in order to grow my business and I had time freedom; something that was so important for me. I had so much time that I felt like I need to do more with it. My business mentor and good friend Tyson had always mentioned Forex Trading to me; so, I reached out to him and told him I was ready to learn. I was so excited about this next step and was eager to get on with the training.

I woke up every morning and couldn’t quite believe this was my life. I was so happy. The feeling you get when the ping of an email now makes you excited rather than stressed is quite difficult to explain. And then… Covid-19 arrived.

The night before our first national lockdown was announced, I felt sick to my stomach. I could sense what was about to come. I was sat in the bath, crying my eyes out at the thought of this freedom coming to an end. I actually started to update my CV that evening. I had lost hope.

Just as expected the next day I got the dreaded news…”We can’t afford to continue with you…” And just like that, my world came crashing down. I had given up my job and my home, and we were in the middle of a pandemic… FUCK.

Luckily, I’ve always had an amazing support network around me. My friend’s mum took me in and I was able to spend lockdown there. As lucky as I was though, I can’t deny that I was not okay. Me waking up each morning on cloud 9 was a distant memory, I now woke up each morning with regrets. I woke up each morning questioning my purpose, questioning if I was strong enough to make it through this time. I was in a bad place, and I spent the majority of lockdown trying to snap myself out of it. I no longer had the passion for the business I had originally quit my job for; what was I going to do now?

Thankfully, something switched one day around the month of May and I knew I needed to take control again. I threw myself back into my Forex training and started reading a ton of self development books. I was back! Things were starting to get back to a bit of normality too. People were leaving the house again and I was able to meet up with Tyson and the rest of the team and really get my head around the whole trading world.

I found somewhere to live and I was starting to get my life back together. A few weeks later, I was sat with the team watching the charts; we were watching Gold at the time and I remember it had just hit an all time high, when Tyson turned around and said “Let’s take a team trip to Dubai!“. I thought he was joking at first, were we even allowed to travel? Next thing I knew, flights were booked and we flew out the next week.

At the airport I remember thinking to myself, how do I go from being homeless and jobless to jumping on a flight to Dubai? All the regrets I had about quitting my job were quickly fading. Dubai was amazing! What we were trying to achieve as a business, Dubai really helped us jump ahead of the game. I could feel the fire in my stomach starting to light up again. I could see the end vision and I was so excited, but most importantly, I looked around and not only had we created a team, we had created a family.

After we got back from Dubai, Money Capital (if you still don’t know what this is why do you even follow me) really started to take off. We were in demand, everyone wanted in. We had to pull our socks up and get to work. Within a month of returning, we were getting ready to deliver our first ever Forex course! The build up to the course was stressful to say the least- and there were a lot of tears; mainly on my part, okay they were all on my part. BUT WE BLOODY DID IT! It was amazing to look around the room and see students engaging with our information, engaging with us! It was all becoming so real! The feedback from the first course was incredible. I don’t need to say much more on that you can check it out for yourself here: LINK

We did that! We created something amazing! There has been so much more to our Money Capital journey and there is so much more to come! If you aren’t following us already, please do! LINK

Looking back on the year, sure there was a lot of shit, but 2020 was actually pretty great! I met some amazing people, I’ve built connections that will last a lifetime and for the first time in my life I actually feel like I have a family. The unconditional love I feel each and every day is the exact love that drives me to be the best version of myself.

I am not the same woman that entered 2020, but I’m also not the same woman I was 6 months ago. I cannot wait to meet the woman I’ll be in the next 6 months!

Do you really want to be a rat?

It’s been almost 9 months since I quit the corporate world; and I can honestly say they have been the best 9 months of my life. Don’t get me wrong there have been some intense moments that tested me to the max; but they were all lessons I needed to go through in order to grow. It’s ironic that I am writing this blog 9 months into my journey as I really do feel like I have given just birth to a whole new me!

Recently, I’ve had a few people ask me why I gave up my “amazing experience” to enter the risky entrepreneurial world; yes, I have had some extremely impressive jobs, on paper some of the companies I have worked have a serious “wow factor”; but in reality, I find the corporate world to be full of soul destroying vultures; especially in the large well-known brands. 

People need to get over the façade of these big corporate companies being a dream to work for; don’t get me wrong there probably are some great ones, but the corporate world I have experienced has been a very corrupt one. 

My last role was the icing on the cake for me. Bullying in the corporate world is a real thing, and unless you have a director or senior title it is often brushed under the carpet. I have experienced this on one too many occasions and I have seen many colleagues around me be subject to this too. There are certain people in the workplace that thrive to be the greatest and they don’t care what they need to do to get there. They will manipulate and intimidate those with less power to them to make themselves look good.

It’s been long enough since I left for me to admit this now, but the corporate world broke me. To the point of zero self-confidence and exhaustion. My last role had me waking up every day with no purpose and an aching pain in my heart to what the day ahead would bring. I know hate is a strong word, but I truly did hate my life. The working world make me hate my life. What gives a job the power to allow you to feel that way? It shouldn’t and this was why I needed to leave. I had never felt so isolated and excluded. I had an awful boss who made my life hell. There was no way I could continue to work in this environment and stay sane.

I contemplated finding another job, but this wasn’t what I wanted. I was sick of all the bullies and people on power trips. I was sick of all the fakeness and back stabbing. I was no longer driven by a company name, job title or salary. To be fair, this had never really been enough for me; for years everyone has made fun of how many jobs I’d had; but deep down this was due to a feeling that I was missing something and needed more of a challenge. I jumped from job to job trying to find this; never really finding it and then I quit my job and that fire that had been dying to light in my stomach blew up! I had finally found where I was meant to be.

Again, the last 9 months haven’t been clean sailing, but they have taught me more about myself then I have learnt in my entire life. I have more purpose and drive than ever before. I’ve fallen into a group of likeminded people and for the first time ever I finally feel like this is where I belong. I am working towards building what works for me and not what works for someone else. 2020 has been a very testing year for everyone, but I can honestly say this year has been the beginning of great things. I am so excited to share this journey with you.

What they won’t tell you about being an entrepreneur.

We always tend to celebrate entrepreneurs for all of their greatness; but we don’t think about the other side to entrepreneurship, the side that unless you are on a journey yourself, you wouldn’t even begin to think of. Have you ever asked your entrepreneur friends how they are feeling? Or celebrated them making it through a bad day?

Yes, we see our friends winning and we support that, but before we start on my journey; let me start by telling you about the REAL journey!

When I first made the decision to be my own boss, I remember being SO excited. I had a ton of ideas running around in my mind, I couldn’t sleep. I was obsessed with the idea of how I was going to better my life. However, then your expectations don’t live up to your realities and you come to a sudden crash. People who you were sure would support you, don’t and very few share the same excitement as you. Welcome to phase one.

This first phase is an emotional rollercoaster, you will start to doubt your own abilities just because someone has questioned them, just because someone hasn’t understood your end goal or just because you have come across some haters or a hurdle. I won’t lie, it took me a very long time to snap myself out of this phase, I think it had a lot to do with my current circumstances and the mind frame they were putting me in at the time; but that’s a story for another blog post. The most important thing to remember when you get to this phase though, is your why. WHY are you on this journey? WHY do you want to succeed? WHY did you start? Your why will always drive your passion.

Don’t let people not supporting you or sharing the same enthusiasm as you hold you back. I’ve come to realise that a lot of people that know you don’t support you because they don’t know the “entrepreneur” you, so they will sit back and watch the ride and then jump in when they see you are successful. I’ve seen many of my fellow entrepreneurs go through this exact phase. You will feel like they are waiting for you to fail, but don’t let that stop you. I promise you the people that don’t believe in you now, will be the ones that boast about you to everyone when you’ve made it. Unfortunately, you will lose these people along the way, I’ve lost quite a few myself.

The journey itself is EXHAUSTING! No one tells you when you sign up to this lifestyle that you will make yourself feel so uncomfortable, it will feel like you are dying; but if anyone did tell you this would you have started in the first place? Building a business is mentally and emotionally draining, but you have to be willing to spend a few years of pure sweat and tears in order to live the rest of your life the way a lot of people can’t.

I know my end goal is going to give me the ultimate freedom, and this is something very important to me; those that know me know how much I love to travel. I want to have the freedom to get up and say “Right, I’m going to work from a beach house in Bali this week”. One of my biggest goals was getting out of the “rat race”. The horrendous 9-5, exchanging my time for money. Thankfully I was able to break free from this race in December 2019- but again there is another story behind that.

Freedom aside though, entrepreneurship is bloody lonely! There will be days where you feel like your whole world is crashing before your eyes. There will be days you lack so much motivation that you just want to curl up in bed and cry. I mean there HAS been days I’ve done just that. People will see you thriving but they won’t see you on the days you are crying and are tempted to throw in the towel.

The one thing I miss from the corporate world is the sense of community.Yes, I have my entrepreneur friends, but 80% of the time you are very much alone, in your thoughts with no one to lean on. This was something that I struggled with for a very long time, but thankfully I have an amazing mentor who helps keep me focused when I’m starting to slip and is also there to encourage me to be the best version of myself. I would recommend everyone to find a mentor that they can confide in throughout this journey. You don’t have to be alone in this.

And when things do start to feel like you’re being suffocated; go back to your why. Take time out to invest in your personal development and read a book. I have a reading list longer than my arm of personal development books, so if anyone wants a recommendation feel free to drop me a message.

There will be days were you will doubt yourself and will ask if you are good enough for your journey. Take a moment to reflect on how far you have already come. You may just surprise yourself. Celebrate those milestones, write down your goals; no matter how small they may be, you will be amazed at how this simple step right here can make a difference.

Become comfortable with being uncomfortable, it’s not going to be an easy journey, but I PROMISE you it will be one worth making.